Mood:: Meh

TV:: I have no idea, some crime show that I'm not watching.

Hello. I'm writing in here, after months, because I know that no one ever reads this one, and I feel like writing without trying to entertain or censor.

I don't really know what I want to write about; I guess it doesn't matter, just whatever I feel like writing.

So I got a guitar lesson last night. It's pretty much what's been on my mind since I got it. It was really cool, even though we spent a good 70% of the lesson just talking. I guess in some ways that was the cool part; even if I do feel like I'm paying Madison to hang out with me, haha. Pssh, hell, I'd spend $10 to stare at him for an hour. =-D. But I do feel like I'm learning already, and it was a good lesson. I can't wait to go back next week. The time flew by like crazy, I couldn't believe an hour had passed! I was sad to go, and yet relieved, because I was so nervous the whole time, and it was like "whew, now i can relax and not have to worry!" My hands were shaking the whole time, especially when I had to play. I screwed up things that I could play perfectly when I was alone at home. Don't you hate that? I know it pissed me off. But it was okay, cause it was my first lesson, and he said that I learn very quickly. That made me feel special :).

Continuing on my whole honest entry because no ones reading it thing. Sometimes I feel like my best friend Cynthia, is drifting away from me. And drifting to our friend Christine. She says she's not and all of course, but for instance, at lunch, she spends most of it talking to Christine. Not me. And during class, she talks to Christine. And online she talks to Christine. And she's gone to the movies with Christine. And I know I'm probably just being paranoid and it means nothing, but sometimes I feel ignored. I think Cindy's picked up on that a little bit, as she's planned our weekend together, as usual, with me spending the night and her coming over and us going to a play. And I like that.

So my friend is a genius. Or at least I'm pretty sure. Cause he was tested and has a 160 IQ, he says, which is genius. Now he could be lying, but it wouldn't surprise me one bit to find out that it's true and he is indeed a genius. He's a brilliant boy. It's obvious that he's really smart, cause he's so damn weird. And I like that.

And now I have to go because my mother is retiring for the evening. Goodnight.

Mood:: Thoughtful

TV:: Same